Weekend Sucks

Its OK if you feel eerie.

But weekends do suck for me. Not sure how many of you reading this agree but i am sure some will. I have been thinking about this for quite some time. There hasn't been a single movie which i have missed in past one year. Neither there has been a single work deadline which i have slipped. Still when i go back and hit the sack , now what? Time just refuses to roll.

The first thought was loneliness. Human beings are gregarious animals ( our civics teacher told). I go to pubs, raced (carts), movies, party and solo drinking and multi grand phone bills. I dont think I am so lone.

Inability to make friends. Yes this might be one thing. I have been here for past one year and how many friends did i make.Most of my friends are still the ones i had in school. I did have a few great friends in collage and at work but rare. Well i have colleagues. But i think workplace means more of work and less of place. And as goes the Murphys laws there are always better girls in the company.

Age matters. Am I old? I don't think 25 and counting is that old.

I am nothing near a successful professional. Seems not even in route. Actually this is what i felt ( indeed after my analysis). But then success is a relative term and defined by self. The problem seems to be not being satisfied with anything i get. Damm it , something seems to be fundamentally wrong.

Heartbreak.

This was the most common thought which keeps coming. Why has it been like that. Actually things just didn't move. I wonder if its me to be blamed. Or there is something else.Is it something better I can do? Somethings i could have done.........

Its friday 8pm and i am looking forward to nothing.May be Two movies , one tonight and another tomorrow 11am. some 100th circumventing tour of Hyderabad on MMTS and may be cooling off with some whiskey in my airy balcony house.

Have a great weekend.